Catherine was grown more mature.

Just now I saw my post 2 years ago.

I just realised I'm growing.

Become more mature.

Become a girl can control my emotion.

Become a happy seed in my surrounding.

I am growing more mature.

I can become a listener to others.

and a counselor.

2years ago, I just a girl like to emo.

make others ppl caring

want a listener listen to me

and give some opinion to solve my problem.

but my listener all gone 

to their own lifestyle.

In this years, God had guided me everytime, everywhere, everymoment.

He always protect me when I was getting hurt.

I pray to God, study Bible and go to sleep.

The next day everythings is gone and the problems were solved.

I had leave God for a time.

During that time, I follow the world.

Cant feel love in this world.

But God,

He hold me.

He hold me in His hand when I fall down.

In a camp, God told me

come back to Him

He guide me.

And He love me.

I cried at the moment, I just realise God is greatful.

I have promised Him.

I have leave Him before,

But now, I want to hold Him.

I want to hold Him with all my strength. 

Now, I cant reach this promise.

Lord, can you help me?

Dear father in heaven, can you help me?

can me to hold you as my strength can.

I want to hold you. But the times make me fail.

And thank you for let me knew what you have done for me.

U r the powerful , greatful and full of love God.

In you, I have peace.

Lord, give me strength to hold you.

Thank you.

In Jesus Christ I pray, Amen.