Happy Ending to me?

Today, I laugh so crazy when I wacth that show. I laugh so crazy when my sis make me laugh. I laugh so crazy when I saw a baby's action so funny.Today is a laugh day to me.

   I reach church 3.30pm. So, I bring my homework to there and do it. When 4.00pm I was learning tamborine.I so enjoy it. Finished that, the KRG was started and I saw my friend of I hate before. When I saw her I didn't felt any angry or hate her. Maybe I know to forgive others. In Matthew got asked love who was you hate. I know this meaning. This so helpful to me.Today I saw him but he so cool to me. Why like this? I don't know. I just know so many people like my sis more than me. Because my sis more funny then me. And I heard someone said my face look like a so serious person. Is that true? I think Yes. I am funny person but not in church. Izzit right? Why I can't do a funny person in church? I like make others laugh. I can't do it.why? Sometimes, I think am I a so serious person? or I'm so quiet make people think me so serious? I can't laugh anymore? Today got 2 person help me take food there also help others there so funny. After KRG, I play with marcus. * He is a baby. He make laugh happily.Then, I play instrument with my sis. So high one for me. I can make myself so high. I know I can't write so long. But I try. Everything must try then future will nothing to care. Today I saw him, and he didn't talk to me. So many people like my sis and there only play with my sis. Sometimes, I jealous to her. I write a song and lyrics to me. The name call ' Finding Happines' The song about my life. Although my life is amazing, but sometime I don't like it. Haha, I know I'm so crazy. But crazy better than sad or angry. At school I must hide my real me. And make others laugh. So tired but I like make others laugh loudly. It will make me happy at a whole day. I just want study hard don't make me glum. I always no mood. I just want to say byebye with no mood. Why can't? This so hard for me.